I am going to get a bit personal here for a minute…
I have a clothes situation and it’s not pretty. The truth is that I gained some weight the past two years and my body changed and it won’t be the same ever again. I have been holding onto those clothes to be ‘fit again”, to motivate me to lose weight, to go back to the gym. But let me tell you something that no women magazine or newspaper tell you: when you get older, you don’t just gain some weight, you actually become wider, and some body parts keep growing. I am not kidding guys! Nobody tells you that shit. I’m not necessarily bigger or heavier. But my butt does not fit into that old pair of jeans, my belly can not stand those low rise jeans anymore and that cute dress makes me look like I had two burgers for lunch.
After 35 years old, your body changes. I was going to the gym every day, exercising, trying to keep up with the younger girls and their tiny body. I did not understand why I could not lose those stupid kilos like before. It should be easy: eat healthy, exercise and you will lose the weight. IT’S A LIE. After 35 years old, your body knows. It knows that you are trying to trick it into starving and sweating. Your body knows what you are trying to do and it’s tired of it. At least, mine is tired of it. And I feel like it just keeps blossoming and taking the space it wants to take in this world of perfection and restriction. More hips, more boobs, more belly, more butt… it’s just my body now and I am not going to tell it how it is supposed to be anymore.
So back to my clothes… all these clothes which don’t fit me anymore. For the past six months, I have been wearing the same pair of jeans over and over again, because it is the only one which fits me. So, my friends, it’s time to say goodbye to my closet. I feel bad for all these pretty dresses, pants and shirts which are sad because I am not wearing them anymore. But they deserve a new home and some love. They deserve to be out in this world. They don’t need to be attached to my shame anymore. I want to make them free.
So, I am participating in this bloggers’ sale on March 26th. And if you want to buy some nice clothes at a very interesting price (everything will be under $50), you should come see us at Vacancy Hall in Edmonton. My goal is not to make money. Lots of stuff will be at $5 or $10.
I am starting over because I deserve it. My body deserves it. It deserves respect for taking me anywhere I want and for being healthy. I’m done treating my body like it is something I should be ashamed of or something imperfect. It’s perfect, it’s beautiful and it’s a gift from the Universe (or from God if you are religious). Let’s all celebrate our bodies and treating it with respect.
Mercer Warehouse, Lower Level
10359 104 Street
Edmonton, Alberta, T5J 1B9
P.S.: I’m all about eating healthy and exercising. This post is not about adopting bad habits or promoting obesity. But it’s more about accepting our bodies the way it is. It’s about living peacefully with our image instead of trying to become what we think society wants us to be.